Last weekend I took a road alone to NC, and as I was driving I had 7 hours to reflect and think about quite a few things that have happened in the past few months. One being this thing called dating. I for the life of me can not and probably will not ever understand the mind of a man who says he wants a strong and independent woman but when he meets her, he doesn't act like a man who appreciates her strengths. As an independent woman I do not want a man who thinks it's okay to start every conversation with me about sex. Just because we have our own stuff and making our own money does not by no means, give you the okay to think that all we need or want is sex. what part of dating don't you get. We want to be courted with a purpose.
While I was driving I was thinking about the people I've met and while they are all very different, they did have some things in common. It's just a shame that the men I respected most for their honesty were the men I met in another state. You have my respect when you travel on Thanksgiving to meet someone in person that you've only spoken to on the phone. That was a fun holiday and we still talk almost every day in one way or another. As I was driving I was also reflecting on my trip to Maryland last summer to meet someone I had only spoken to on the phone, that too was a wonderful and comfortable trip. spending time with a man that I felt like I have known for more than a year. Both men very busy with their lives as I am never once felt ignored nor did they not let me know that I was in their thoughts. Good morning messages almost every day a phone call to say Hi.
Now when I think about Cleveland and this is not all men just the ones I've met and dealt with. they were nice and the first dates were good, but after that they stopped wanting to date and just jump right into a relationship. I know it's been a while since I've been in a long term relationship, but last time I checked one date does not make a relationship. So as I'm driving I'm wondering to myself will I ever really find that person that is meant for me. Have I gotten so used to being by myself that it doesn't matter anymore. My next career change is my priority, my relocation plans are my priority, school is definitely my priority so I ask is there really a man out there who is ready to support my dreams? I hope so because if there is one thing that I do know is that men and women were not put on this earth to be alone.
I made that drive alone and although I have traveled by myself making that drive has given me a new since of independence. The only thing I haven't done alone is go out to dinner. I went to the movies which I do often, I will be attending my nephews wedding without a date and attending the Whispers concert alone. I have learned to do a lot by myself over the years because if I wait on someone to go with me I will never get there. So when I ask someone to attend an event with me and I get an answer of maybe or let me see, or they wait until the day comes and have an excuse. Red flag goes up, and I won't ask again.
I am at peace with my life and I love how I'm living. Yes I would love to spend my time and the rest of my life with someone special who makes me happy and vice versa, but if it doesn't happen I'm okay with that too. I will not sacrifice my wants anymore. These are just some of the things I was reflecting on while making a 7 hour drive to my soon to be next home......
UNTIL NEXT TIME
ME......
