Good morning world....
I woke up this morning after having the most beautiful dream about a wonderful man. The setting is in Pocono Resort my favorite place to get away to, and now I'm here with a man who makes me feel like I'm the most important woman in his life. Picture this we're staying at the Ceasar's Resort where the rooms are beautiful. As usual the Champagne room is booked for the weekend, not to worry we still have a beautiful room heart shaped jacuzzi tub, round king size bed, and an in suite pool with a steam room. Now you couldn't ask for a better room. skinny dipping in the pool and making love is just like the movies. No work, no worries just the two of us doing what grown people do. Everything about this is what I wanted in a man, he's gentle, kind passionate and has never made me feel like a chirp chirp girl. We go to dinner looking fine as hell, we are seated with a young couple who we had a great time with. Dinner was a success now it's time for some live music, this particular weekend the Temptation are appearing live. We dance the night away slow dancing as he holds me close and whispers in my ear "you are so beautiful" that puts a big smile on face.
The night is winding down and we go back to the room, we're both tired so we put on a CD that we bought with us old school WHISPERS, (my favorite romantic group). Time to fill up the tub bubbles and all candle and nice bottle of wine called RELAX. We relax and get comfortable music playing, conversation is great, the atmosphere is perfect. We dry off lotion each other up and slip into bed holding each other close as he is kissing me gently on my neck, moving to my earlobe and kiss the outside of my lips before giving me the most passionate kiss I've had in such a long time. This man is absolutely everything I ever dreamed of. Well the rest of the night was perfect we touched and rubbed and kissed each other in all the right places, before the actual act of making love which was explosive. WOW I think I love this man, is this real? I pinched myself and yes it was true we were in the Pocono's together. Well the morning comes and there's a knock at the door, what is this breakfast in bed how could I forget that we asked for this since I knew we would not be up in time to have breakfast in the dining room. Perfect start to a sunny day, what to do so many activities, how about golf finally I'm going to learn couldn't ask for a better teacher, well we did all the things that a couple in love would do holding hands, public displays of affection, taking pictures to capture the memories the perfect ending to the perfect weekend.
6:30am this morning I wake up to this message that was sent at 5:34am "I just want u 2kno that I'm so lucky 2 have u n my life! And even more your ability 2 share your luv with me!"
Who could ask for a better way to wake up, having the same thought at almost the same time.
YES I AM LOVING MY LIFE AND I HOPE THIS FEELING THAT I HAVE CONTINUES. WE ARE HEADING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.
TIL NEXT TIME I WISH EVERYBODY A HAPPY LIFE...
Monday, September 24, 2012
Sunday, September 23, 2012
CONFESSIONS OF ADULTRY.....
It starts with a smile, a simple glance and great conversation just that easy. It is so easy to get attached to someone when there is a need, maybe they are are having marital problems and need someone to talk to, or it could be that you are that female who can talk about anything from sports to cars. Most men find that attractive in a woman and it is especially a turn on when you hold all these qualities and the wife or girlfriend doesn't. Now they have an outside buddy, so you start making flirty remarks at each other that you try to play off as just fun, when in actuality you really want to do each other.
Now you ask how does the sex come into play? Picture this it's New Years Eve your're alone for the holiday and he's at work, well you decide to surprise him and yes it is a pleasant surprise since he doesn't get off until midnight. Well midnight comes and the two of you share a New Years kiss. Now like I always say it starts with a kiss and yes the kiss is nice. Neither of you have regrets you both go to your own homes. The next day you talk and carry on as usual not drawing attention to yourself.
Anyway days and weeks go by and you finally hook up after meeting for lunch and shooting pool and just hanging out, now you have the most passionate sex ever, there is absolutely no guilt felt, you make time for each other, he brings you gifts, he makes time for you even on holidays. You go along with it with no thought for the wife because this is his problem as long as it doesn't come back to you. This relationship continues for about 2 years and it just keeps getting better. Now you both have real feelings for each other and you can't imagine being with anyone else. This relationship is the best you think you've had, pump your breaks this man belongs to someone else, although he gives you everything you want and more the most important things are missing. Someone to hold at night when you roll over and the other side of the bed is empty.
OK you have to make a decision or you know one of you has to. You decide to end the relationship because in the long run you will always be the one who gets hurt. So you move with your life to another relationship and for the most part it's going well also. Until he walks into your life temptation again. The cycle starts over what is wrong with you? nothing at all, you are only doing what men have been doing since the beginning of time, we just do it better. Although you have never been caught and have always managed to hold down your own relationship, it is the thrill of mystery and someone new and exciting and the flirting that kept you in the game. You love your man sure but you are sexually attracted to someone else.
So now that you are older you try to share with other women how easy it is for their men to stray, it really doesn't take much. You have changed your ways and now you have been blessed with a good and understanding man who does not judge your past and excepts you unconditionally.
Now this is not to say that all men/women cheat but you have to open your eyes and look at the signs because they're there, and continue to keep the spice going in your own relationships and there will never be room for someone to swoop in and get your man or woman..
No names were mentioned to protect the innocent....
TIL NEXT TIME PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR MATE..
Now you ask how does the sex come into play? Picture this it's New Years Eve your're alone for the holiday and he's at work, well you decide to surprise him and yes it is a pleasant surprise since he doesn't get off until midnight. Well midnight comes and the two of you share a New Years kiss. Now like I always say it starts with a kiss and yes the kiss is nice. Neither of you have regrets you both go to your own homes. The next day you talk and carry on as usual not drawing attention to yourself.
Anyway days and weeks go by and you finally hook up after meeting for lunch and shooting pool and just hanging out, now you have the most passionate sex ever, there is absolutely no guilt felt, you make time for each other, he brings you gifts, he makes time for you even on holidays. You go along with it with no thought for the wife because this is his problem as long as it doesn't come back to you. This relationship continues for about 2 years and it just keeps getting better. Now you both have real feelings for each other and you can't imagine being with anyone else. This relationship is the best you think you've had, pump your breaks this man belongs to someone else, although he gives you everything you want and more the most important things are missing. Someone to hold at night when you roll over and the other side of the bed is empty.
OK you have to make a decision or you know one of you has to. You decide to end the relationship because in the long run you will always be the one who gets hurt. So you move with your life to another relationship and for the most part it's going well also. Until he walks into your life temptation again. The cycle starts over what is wrong with you? nothing at all, you are only doing what men have been doing since the beginning of time, we just do it better. Although you have never been caught and have always managed to hold down your own relationship, it is the thrill of mystery and someone new and exciting and the flirting that kept you in the game. You love your man sure but you are sexually attracted to someone else.
So now that you are older you try to share with other women how easy it is for their men to stray, it really doesn't take much. You have changed your ways and now you have been blessed with a good and understanding man who does not judge your past and excepts you unconditionally.
Now this is not to say that all men/women cheat but you have to open your eyes and look at the signs because they're there, and continue to keep the spice going in your own relationships and there will never be room for someone to swoop in and get your man or woman..
No names were mentioned to protect the innocent....
TIL NEXT TIME PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR MATE..
Sunday, September 9, 2012
PIECES OF ME.....
Just like my favorite song when you look at my face you're gonna know that I'm made of everything love and pain....
I was listening to this today and I started reminencing about my past relationships, and my life now.
There are so many pieces to me that at 52 have finally come together and now make sense. I thought about who really knows me, and I could not think of one person who really knows me or my story unless you were there. I met a man who asked me today what do I find so intriguing about him.
1. He is so very different from the men I'm used to seeing, he's older for one thing.
2. He is an interesting man and very passionate about what he believes in.
3. He doesn't judge me about my past, although he now knows I don't like talking about myself if he ask me anything I feel so comfortable telling him, and that is something I don't do.
4. He is not an emotionally needy man, he doesn't need to talk to me everyday to know that I care and vice versa.
5. When we finally met in person it was like going to another part of Cleveland, I didn't feel like I had gotten on a plane to go meet a man I had only been talking to on the phone.
There is so much more about him that makes me just want to be in his presence, of all the men I know and have known no has really taken the time to find out what makes me the woman I am today.
This man could tell just from our conversations the basic things about me, that I am a woman who has been through some things, but willing to open my heart up to love, that I am a strong woman but I am also a woman who knows how to let a man be a man, but I can take charge when I have to.
All of this from months of conversations, until the weekend we met and found out that we clicked from the start. All the pieces of information about he now had he could put an actual face to. He saw the me that he had been seeing in all the pictures that he had recieved. Yes I'm real it was not a dream, he could put his hands on the woman that he had been dreaming about and I was in the presence of the man who had now consumed all of my fantasies. I had a wonderful time, just real easy breezy and comfortable.
For as much as I had been through and the many men I have loved none of them took the time to put the pieces together, to learn how to love me or what makes this woman tick. There are alot of pieces...
1) daughter, 2) sister, 3) girlfriend, 4) mother 5) wife and now a matured woman with adult children and a life and past that I am not ashamed of nor do I appologize for, but if the men who professed to love me had just put all the pieces together they would have found found out that I'm not that complicated, and they would have known how to love me right.
This man wants to learn to love me and I most certainly want to learn how to love, and share his dreams as well as him sharing mine.
None of us no how long we have left on this earth, so when you have the chance to be loved by someone who really wants to be with you, don't think about it, don't second guess it just do it.
Yes we as women are complicated and most of us have many pieces, we just want the right man to take the time to put the pieces together and love us whole heartedly and unconditionally.
I am a grown up woman whose pieces have been put together, to share my story and my journey.
I am loving my life right now and the real people in it.
Til next time these are the pieces of me.....
I was listening to this today and I started reminencing about my past relationships, and my life now.
There are so many pieces to me that at 52 have finally come together and now make sense. I thought about who really knows me, and I could not think of one person who really knows me or my story unless you were there. I met a man who asked me today what do I find so intriguing about him.
1. He is so very different from the men I'm used to seeing, he's older for one thing.
2. He is an interesting man and very passionate about what he believes in.
3. He doesn't judge me about my past, although he now knows I don't like talking about myself if he ask me anything I feel so comfortable telling him, and that is something I don't do.
4. He is not an emotionally needy man, he doesn't need to talk to me everyday to know that I care and vice versa.
5. When we finally met in person it was like going to another part of Cleveland, I didn't feel like I had gotten on a plane to go meet a man I had only been talking to on the phone.
There is so much more about him that makes me just want to be in his presence, of all the men I know and have known no has really taken the time to find out what makes me the woman I am today.
This man could tell just from our conversations the basic things about me, that I am a woman who has been through some things, but willing to open my heart up to love, that I am a strong woman but I am also a woman who knows how to let a man be a man, but I can take charge when I have to.
All of this from months of conversations, until the weekend we met and found out that we clicked from the start. All the pieces of information about he now had he could put an actual face to. He saw the me that he had been seeing in all the pictures that he had recieved. Yes I'm real it was not a dream, he could put his hands on the woman that he had been dreaming about and I was in the presence of the man who had now consumed all of my fantasies. I had a wonderful time, just real easy breezy and comfortable.
For as much as I had been through and the many men I have loved none of them took the time to put the pieces together, to learn how to love me or what makes this woman tick. There are alot of pieces...
1) daughter, 2) sister, 3) girlfriend, 4) mother 5) wife and now a matured woman with adult children and a life and past that I am not ashamed of nor do I appologize for, but if the men who professed to love me had just put all the pieces together they would have found found out that I'm not that complicated, and they would have known how to love me right.
This man wants to learn to love me and I most certainly want to learn how to love, and share his dreams as well as him sharing mine.
None of us no how long we have left on this earth, so when you have the chance to be loved by someone who really wants to be with you, don't think about it, don't second guess it just do it.
Yes we as women are complicated and most of us have many pieces, we just want the right man to take the time to put the pieces together and love us whole heartedly and unconditionally.
I am a grown up woman whose pieces have been put together, to share my story and my journey.
I am loving my life right now and the real people in it.
Til next time these are the pieces of me.....
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
CONVERSATION WITH A FRIEND..
Okay one night last week I had a conversation with a very good male friend of mine who just happens to be my best friend. We talk about everything but for some reason I think in his mind he thinks there is still a future for us. Well in the midst of all our conversations we talk about relationships and love. Now this has been the mystery of the century, he said to me that he has finally come to the conclusion that he really don't know what love is. After I got off the phone with him I had to think about that myself. Do I know what love is?
I thought I did and for the most part I think I do, I don't claim to be an expert but I do know a little something. Over my years of dating and being in relationships I have loved many men for different reasons. This particular friend was my teenage love at 17, that lasted for several years. This was a relationship that everyone thought would end in a marriage. So did I until he went to the service, I was such a loyal girlfriend and at time I was so in love with this boy, we were in the same English class that I helped him get through.. (lol). We used to walk to the bar b que place for polish boys everyday after school. He was the only boy my mother half way liked, as like most mothers no one is good enough for their daughters. Well this lasted until I went in the Army without telling him. When he found out after I was already gone he was heart broken, but he understood until I had to tell him one day that I was pregnant with another man's child. When I tell you that was the worst thing that I have ever had to tell anyone. I broke his heart and he still forgave me even after I had my son, and we tried to stay together for a while but after a year he couldn't handle raising another mans child. Now remember this was the early 80's so the men back then were not as willing to step up to the plate and help. So when we separated I understood and I let him go. We have remained best friends since 1977. He has seen me through many bad relationships, been there for me when I was raped, saw me through the death of 2 boyfriends.
So I would have to disagree with him when he says he doesn't know love is, yes he does he knew how to love me through all my pain, despite the fact that he had a wife and I married eventually after waiting for many years for him to leave his wife, and me comparing every man to him. Although I married for the wrong reasons and I knew it, he admitted after his 20 plus years marriage ended that he didn't love his wife when he married her. Well needless to say we tried several times to get back together, me comtemplating moving to Texas and him even coming home, but whenever I told him that if we were going to try again I wanted him to court me the old fashioned way. We never dated we were friends who turned into lovers and best friends.
Now I guess you're wondering why can't we get it together, you two seem to have what it takes to make a relationship work, a strong friendship foundation and we do. While that is a good thing and important sometimes it can hurt a relationship. This man was in the Coast Guard for over 20 years and with one woman for just as long, me I have lived a life full of good and bad experiences most of which he knows about. In my mind I some how felt like he was judging me without really saying anything. I know he would be the man that could very well take care of me, he just does not know how to love me at 52, he still thinks that we can go back to our 20's and we can't. Where I used to have that butterfly feeling in my stomach whenever he came home, I don't anymore and I haven't for a long time.
I love him and he loves me but I don't think I'm in love with him the way I should, because there is still no compromise, he likes to try and change the women he's with, and I am so very different than I was when I was that 17 year old girl that he kissed for the first time on the steps of his attic. Like I have always said for me it starts with a kiss. And here we are 35 years later and we still talk almost everyday...
When he says he doesn't know what love is, yes he does because he has loved me all this time. He just has to stop looking for me in the people he meets. Open his heart to a new relationship and just relax, it's not all about money and work, you have to learn to balance both. And more importantly you have to learn to love and enjoy your own company. Although I live alone and the man that has captured my attention lives in Maryland I never feel lonely. I am at a happy place in my life and I enjoy sharing my experiences with my friends.
I repeat I am not an expert but I do know a little something about love because I've had it and if I never find it again I can look back at my life with no regrets and with a smile....
That's my story and I'm sticking to it.....
I thought I did and for the most part I think I do, I don't claim to be an expert but I do know a little something. Over my years of dating and being in relationships I have loved many men for different reasons. This particular friend was my teenage love at 17, that lasted for several years. This was a relationship that everyone thought would end in a marriage. So did I until he went to the service, I was such a loyal girlfriend and at time I was so in love with this boy, we were in the same English class that I helped him get through.. (lol). We used to walk to the bar b que place for polish boys everyday after school. He was the only boy my mother half way liked, as like most mothers no one is good enough for their daughters. Well this lasted until I went in the Army without telling him. When he found out after I was already gone he was heart broken, but he understood until I had to tell him one day that I was pregnant with another man's child. When I tell you that was the worst thing that I have ever had to tell anyone. I broke his heart and he still forgave me even after I had my son, and we tried to stay together for a while but after a year he couldn't handle raising another mans child. Now remember this was the early 80's so the men back then were not as willing to step up to the plate and help. So when we separated I understood and I let him go. We have remained best friends since 1977. He has seen me through many bad relationships, been there for me when I was raped, saw me through the death of 2 boyfriends.
So I would have to disagree with him when he says he doesn't know love is, yes he does he knew how to love me through all my pain, despite the fact that he had a wife and I married eventually after waiting for many years for him to leave his wife, and me comparing every man to him. Although I married for the wrong reasons and I knew it, he admitted after his 20 plus years marriage ended that he didn't love his wife when he married her. Well needless to say we tried several times to get back together, me comtemplating moving to Texas and him even coming home, but whenever I told him that if we were going to try again I wanted him to court me the old fashioned way. We never dated we were friends who turned into lovers and best friends.
Now I guess you're wondering why can't we get it together, you two seem to have what it takes to make a relationship work, a strong friendship foundation and we do. While that is a good thing and important sometimes it can hurt a relationship. This man was in the Coast Guard for over 20 years and with one woman for just as long, me I have lived a life full of good and bad experiences most of which he knows about. In my mind I some how felt like he was judging me without really saying anything. I know he would be the man that could very well take care of me, he just does not know how to love me at 52, he still thinks that we can go back to our 20's and we can't. Where I used to have that butterfly feeling in my stomach whenever he came home, I don't anymore and I haven't for a long time.
I love him and he loves me but I don't think I'm in love with him the way I should, because there is still no compromise, he likes to try and change the women he's with, and I am so very different than I was when I was that 17 year old girl that he kissed for the first time on the steps of his attic. Like I have always said for me it starts with a kiss. And here we are 35 years later and we still talk almost everyday...
When he says he doesn't know what love is, yes he does because he has loved me all this time. He just has to stop looking for me in the people he meets. Open his heart to a new relationship and just relax, it's not all about money and work, you have to learn to balance both. And more importantly you have to learn to love and enjoy your own company. Although I live alone and the man that has captured my attention lives in Maryland I never feel lonely. I am at a happy place in my life and I enjoy sharing my experiences with my friends.
I repeat I am not an expert but I do know a little something about love because I've had it and if I never find it again I can look back at my life with no regrets and with a smile....
That's my story and I'm sticking to it.....
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
A LETTER TO MY DAUGHTER'S
This is for the my daughter's by birth and those that I have aquired along the way through my own kids..
Hello ladies
Right now my heart is heavy with concern for you ladies. I have seen a side of 2 young ladies that scared me. I don't know why as beautiful a you are that you have just settled for men who don't value or desrve you. When I look at you I see myself in you over 25 yrss ago. Although I don't think I ever had a self esteem problem, nor do you. I fell for the same type of men who told me I was beautiful and sexy, only to find out with most of them it was all about sex, and control. Since there was no positive example of a good relationship around me I did what I thought was right. I tried to let a man take control of the family until the lights got turned off and then I knew I didn't want to live like that, so I paid the bills. Yet still allowing him to be the head of the house. For the most part everything was okay until the signs of abuse started to appear that now in hindsight I wish I had seen. Jealousy is never a sign of love, trying to keep you away from your family and friends is another sign, all of which was going on at the time. Then came the sign a slap in the face. I was in shock that someone who claimed to loved me could do that to me. I shook it off and like all women I didn't think he would do it again. Well I was wrong because it did happen over and over again, and as I have told you all your life this was the man who taught me how to fight back. I did; I went back to school to get a career that would allow me the ability to take care of my children.
Plan B.. That is what I tried to drum into your head in all aspects of you life, you always need a plan B. I finished school and I fought almost everyday but I made it, for every pucnh he threw and for every slap he administered he got it right back. When the last fight happened I knew that was it, it was time to put plan B in motion. I moved away to start new. Although the abuse stopped it left me in a position of thinking with every relationship I had to be in control, and for the most part I was. I had the money and the home and when I could afford it the car.
I have made many mstakes with men but the one thing that remained constant was my control, never put yourself in a position to be put out of anywhere, dont settle for a man who can not help you when there are children involved. If he can support your dreams or hold you up when you feel like the world is crashing in on you, or dry your tears when you just have to let the tear flow, then that is not the man for you.
I look at you girls and I just want the best for you always, yes I am much more calmer now than I was 25 years ago, hell even just 10 years ago. I had to figure out what I wanted in life and what kind of man is good for me, and until God places that person in your life you have to be able to love yourself and be comfortable with being alone, remember alone does not mean lonely. With every bad relationship you go through take something from it and store it the good and the bad but only use the bad to not repeat that same mistake. Never make a new love accountable for what the wrong man did to you. You can use me as an example I have always shared my past with you guys o you know I am not the one to judge or tell you what to do, because like my mother always told me and your aunties " when you get sick and tired of being sick and tired you will know what to do" and she was right. All Iask is that you find your peace and make your own happiness. Command your respect without making these men feel less than a man, it will be hard but you will never be happy in your relationship making him feel bad....
This is my letter to all my daughters. Maintain you respect for yourself and know that I am here for you and I understand because I've been where you are. It does get better you just have to put yorself first.
I love you all very much and for my own daughters you know what we always say.." you are Walker women, built FORD TOUGH"
LOVE YOU MUCH
MOM
Hello ladies
Right now my heart is heavy with concern for you ladies. I have seen a side of 2 young ladies that scared me. I don't know why as beautiful a you are that you have just settled for men who don't value or desrve you. When I look at you I see myself in you over 25 yrss ago. Although I don't think I ever had a self esteem problem, nor do you. I fell for the same type of men who told me I was beautiful and sexy, only to find out with most of them it was all about sex, and control. Since there was no positive example of a good relationship around me I did what I thought was right. I tried to let a man take control of the family until the lights got turned off and then I knew I didn't want to live like that, so I paid the bills. Yet still allowing him to be the head of the house. For the most part everything was okay until the signs of abuse started to appear that now in hindsight I wish I had seen. Jealousy is never a sign of love, trying to keep you away from your family and friends is another sign, all of which was going on at the time. Then came the sign a slap in the face. I was in shock that someone who claimed to loved me could do that to me. I shook it off and like all women I didn't think he would do it again. Well I was wrong because it did happen over and over again, and as I have told you all your life this was the man who taught me how to fight back. I did; I went back to school to get a career that would allow me the ability to take care of my children.
Plan B.. That is what I tried to drum into your head in all aspects of you life, you always need a plan B. I finished school and I fought almost everyday but I made it, for every pucnh he threw and for every slap he administered he got it right back. When the last fight happened I knew that was it, it was time to put plan B in motion. I moved away to start new. Although the abuse stopped it left me in a position of thinking with every relationship I had to be in control, and for the most part I was. I had the money and the home and when I could afford it the car.
I have made many mstakes with men but the one thing that remained constant was my control, never put yourself in a position to be put out of anywhere, dont settle for a man who can not help you when there are children involved. If he can support your dreams or hold you up when you feel like the world is crashing in on you, or dry your tears when you just have to let the tear flow, then that is not the man for you.
I look at you girls and I just want the best for you always, yes I am much more calmer now than I was 25 years ago, hell even just 10 years ago. I had to figure out what I wanted in life and what kind of man is good for me, and until God places that person in your life you have to be able to love yourself and be comfortable with being alone, remember alone does not mean lonely. With every bad relationship you go through take something from it and store it the good and the bad but only use the bad to not repeat that same mistake. Never make a new love accountable for what the wrong man did to you. You can use me as an example I have always shared my past with you guys o you know I am not the one to judge or tell you what to do, because like my mother always told me and your aunties " when you get sick and tired of being sick and tired you will know what to do" and she was right. All Iask is that you find your peace and make your own happiness. Command your respect without making these men feel less than a man, it will be hard but you will never be happy in your relationship making him feel bad....
This is my letter to all my daughters. Maintain you respect for yourself and know that I am here for you and I understand because I've been where you are. It does get better you just have to put yorself first.
I love you all very much and for my own daughters you know what we always say.." you are Walker women, built FORD TOUGH"
LOVE YOU MUCH
MOM
Sunday, August 5, 2012
NEW LOVE UNFOLDING......
Well how do I start? I guess I could start with once upon a time, or even start with; Just as I was about to give up love and dating after a couple of attempts at meeting someone online. Don't get me wrong I got a chance to meet some very nice men who have remained a part of my friend circle, but for one reason or another it just didn't work out as a relationship.
Well one day in November while checking my many emails as I not to often do. I started checking my mail from blacksingles, and found that several people had viewed my my profile and sent messages that I took the time to actually read and go through them. Well some of them were good potentials right off the back. Their profile read was very informative, most enjoyed the same things I liked, even had some of the same ideas about relationships that I was looking for. Well of course you know you can't respond to all them; so I started thinning them out by age; over 10 yrs is too big of a gap in age. Then we go to the height I am 5'11" and dating short men has never been a problem but I like to wear heals so under 5'10" I crossed off the list. Now this leaves profile pictures the men on blacksingles are very handsome and sexy so this was difficult. I sent out replies to those who shared the same interests and whose children were adults. Well needless to say the list was very short because alot of these guys lived in other states; from New York to Denver to Georgia. Some of them were right here in Cleveland and they were fun but I am not looking for just fun. Sometimes you just want to be with someone who's every waking thought is not about sex. Well I read through the profiles again and one just stood out more than the others, now grant it there was no picture, and this persoon was 10 yrs older than I am. Now I have only dated 1 other man that was 10 yrs older but I was in my 20's.
Now here's where it gets interesting we start communicating through emails on this sight still no picture for me to see, now he has seen me. So now we exchange numbers still sight unseen, he's saying all the right things, sending poems nice middle of the day notes. Oh did I forget to say that our first coversation lasted several hours. My fault we started talking before the text messages. When I say that talking to him felt like he was around the corner that is exactly how it felt. So easy and comfortable. So this is when we decided that we would give this long distance dating a shot as long as we kept the lines of communication open it should work. Well he finally sent me several pictures and I must say I was very impressed, handsome older southern gentleman. As the the weeks pass on we talk almost everyday in one form or the other either text or telephone convo. I love talking to him he has told me on many occasions that he's shared more about himself and his job with me than he has with anyone else, and vice versa because I am a very private person so unless you ask I do not volunteer anything. I don't carry old relationships into potential new relationships.
So here we are 8 months later and we've exchanged pictures all kinds of pictures of me, he has been more consistent with his persuit of getting to know me than the men that actually live here. Now I am not the kind of woman who easily falls for any man, you have to show me because I am a woman of my word, if you want romance and passion that is exactly what you get. He sent 2 dozen roses for Mothers Day and I was pleasantly surprised, so for Fathers Day I decided to send him something that I knew would be different for a man who has everything and never really asked for nothing. He received a CD and a DVD of music and pictures that we exchanged over the months. He was very surprised and happy so now when he listens to the CD or plays the DVD he'll think of me.
Time for first visit; have you ever been nervous about a first date where you have butterflies in your stomach, well that's how I felt with the initial planned visit, not really knowing what to expect when I got there, if this was the right thing to do or not, but at the same time very excited to finally meet him because now I could a real person with the messages and the the long talks after all these months. Well first visit didn't happen why you ask, he called the night before to postpone the trip, now mind you I was all packed and ready to leave that morning after work. well he explained and I understood and he rescheduled for the next weekend off which was only 2 weeks later. Now this time I'm not nervous or anxious it was easy and comfortable. Important info left with my daughter just in case, you never know I was flying and meeting someone in person for the first time.
I arrive in Maryland and much to my surprise he looks just like his picture, he gave me the nicest hug, opened up my door and put my luggage in the car. The ride back to his home was very nice, he showed me around we had lunch just a nice time like being with someone I had known all my life. We're back at his house I get the tour beautiful home quiet neighborhood, just big enough for him.
We sit at the kitchen table to have a glass of wine after he told me to make myself comfortable, well for me that is a shower and basketball shorts and a beater. while we are at the kitchen table we make a toast to new beginnings and finally meeting. Well I guess you can say the rest is relationship history; one thing lead to another,we went to the mall, out to the movies held hands throughout the movie. We went for a walk in the park holding hands like the couples I see all the time around here. The days were beautiful and the nights were better, cuddling and other things that I will not mention. It felt good to fall asleep in the arms of a man again. Now Sunday is here and we did just what I had always dreamed about doing with him, nothing absolutely nothing we stayed in all day in our pj's, watching TV, eating and napping before I prepared Sunday dinner for the two of us while he sat at the kitchen table keeping me company. Needless to say dinner turned out great and dinner for two was wonderful. Went to see Batman 1st time for him 2nd time for me but I didn't mind.
Last night together memorable that's all I have to say about that, coming home did not feel like I was leaving to go to another state, it felt as if I was going to another part of the city. I have never felt this comfortable and easy with any man, I don't know if it's the age difference or not but I do know that I like him alot and looking forward to his visit here to Cleveland and many more to Maryland.
It was especially special to me to know that I made a difference in his life and him in mine, and to here some one say how much they miss you is the best. This is my story and I'm sticking to it.....
My wish is for everyone of a particular age who thinks they have given up on love, don't it worked for me in the most unconventional way that I would have persued. My heart was always open to love I guess that is why and how it found it's way in...
Until next time I am happy with my life and my choice..
JUST BE HAPPY.....
Well one day in November while checking my many emails as I not to often do. I started checking my mail from blacksingles, and found that several people had viewed my my profile and sent messages that I took the time to actually read and go through them. Well some of them were good potentials right off the back. Their profile read was very informative, most enjoyed the same things I liked, even had some of the same ideas about relationships that I was looking for. Well of course you know you can't respond to all them; so I started thinning them out by age; over 10 yrs is too big of a gap in age. Then we go to the height I am 5'11" and dating short men has never been a problem but I like to wear heals so under 5'10" I crossed off the list. Now this leaves profile pictures the men on blacksingles are very handsome and sexy so this was difficult. I sent out replies to those who shared the same interests and whose children were adults. Well needless to say the list was very short because alot of these guys lived in other states; from New York to Denver to Georgia. Some of them were right here in Cleveland and they were fun but I am not looking for just fun. Sometimes you just want to be with someone who's every waking thought is not about sex. Well I read through the profiles again and one just stood out more than the others, now grant it there was no picture, and this persoon was 10 yrs older than I am. Now I have only dated 1 other man that was 10 yrs older but I was in my 20's.
Now here's where it gets interesting we start communicating through emails on this sight still no picture for me to see, now he has seen me. So now we exchange numbers still sight unseen, he's saying all the right things, sending poems nice middle of the day notes. Oh did I forget to say that our first coversation lasted several hours. My fault we started talking before the text messages. When I say that talking to him felt like he was around the corner that is exactly how it felt. So easy and comfortable. So this is when we decided that we would give this long distance dating a shot as long as we kept the lines of communication open it should work. Well he finally sent me several pictures and I must say I was very impressed, handsome older southern gentleman. As the the weeks pass on we talk almost everyday in one form or the other either text or telephone convo. I love talking to him he has told me on many occasions that he's shared more about himself and his job with me than he has with anyone else, and vice versa because I am a very private person so unless you ask I do not volunteer anything. I don't carry old relationships into potential new relationships.
So here we are 8 months later and we've exchanged pictures all kinds of pictures of me, he has been more consistent with his persuit of getting to know me than the men that actually live here. Now I am not the kind of woman who easily falls for any man, you have to show me because I am a woman of my word, if you want romance and passion that is exactly what you get. He sent 2 dozen roses for Mothers Day and I was pleasantly surprised, so for Fathers Day I decided to send him something that I knew would be different for a man who has everything and never really asked for nothing. He received a CD and a DVD of music and pictures that we exchanged over the months. He was very surprised and happy so now when he listens to the CD or plays the DVD he'll think of me.
Time for first visit; have you ever been nervous about a first date where you have butterflies in your stomach, well that's how I felt with the initial planned visit, not really knowing what to expect when I got there, if this was the right thing to do or not, but at the same time very excited to finally meet him because now I could a real person with the messages and the the long talks after all these months. Well first visit didn't happen why you ask, he called the night before to postpone the trip, now mind you I was all packed and ready to leave that morning after work. well he explained and I understood and he rescheduled for the next weekend off which was only 2 weeks later. Now this time I'm not nervous or anxious it was easy and comfortable. Important info left with my daughter just in case, you never know I was flying and meeting someone in person for the first time.
I arrive in Maryland and much to my surprise he looks just like his picture, he gave me the nicest hug, opened up my door and put my luggage in the car. The ride back to his home was very nice, he showed me around we had lunch just a nice time like being with someone I had known all my life. We're back at his house I get the tour beautiful home quiet neighborhood, just big enough for him.
We sit at the kitchen table to have a glass of wine after he told me to make myself comfortable, well for me that is a shower and basketball shorts and a beater. while we are at the kitchen table we make a toast to new beginnings and finally meeting. Well I guess you can say the rest is relationship history; one thing lead to another,we went to the mall, out to the movies held hands throughout the movie. We went for a walk in the park holding hands like the couples I see all the time around here. The days were beautiful and the nights were better, cuddling and other things that I will not mention. It felt good to fall asleep in the arms of a man again. Now Sunday is here and we did just what I had always dreamed about doing with him, nothing absolutely nothing we stayed in all day in our pj's, watching TV, eating and napping before I prepared Sunday dinner for the two of us while he sat at the kitchen table keeping me company. Needless to say dinner turned out great and dinner for two was wonderful. Went to see Batman 1st time for him 2nd time for me but I didn't mind.
Last night together memorable that's all I have to say about that, coming home did not feel like I was leaving to go to another state, it felt as if I was going to another part of the city. I have never felt this comfortable and easy with any man, I don't know if it's the age difference or not but I do know that I like him alot and looking forward to his visit here to Cleveland and many more to Maryland.
It was especially special to me to know that I made a difference in his life and him in mine, and to here some one say how much they miss you is the best. This is my story and I'm sticking to it.....
My wish is for everyone of a particular age who thinks they have given up on love, don't it worked for me in the most unconventional way that I would have persued. My heart was always open to love I guess that is why and how it found it's way in...
Until next time I am happy with my life and my choice..
JUST BE HAPPY.....
Sunday, June 3, 2012
DATING OVER 40......
This post is dedicated to anyone who is finding themselves newly single or who have been single for a while and find themselves having a hard time with this thing called dating.
As everyone knows I am a woman over 50 and I have always said that I don't like dating at all. I don't remember it being this hard, but then when I look back on my past relationships I never really did the dating thing. All of my relationships were friendships that evolved into a relationship. So I am having a difficult time with this. I was a woman who always had a boyfriend, my last real relationship was 8 yrs ago, and the last time I tried to get involved with someone was 3 yrs ago when he showed me something that made me rethink and end that quickly, I was not ready or willing to deal with a messy man, full of lies and deceit. So I took a year off from dating and sex and focus on me. I kept myself busy with work and my family. Exactly 1 year and 3 months later I decided to throw my hat back into the ring of dating. Sure I met a few men who were ok at first but then it turned out they only wanted one thing and that's all it was about. I am not a female youcan call in the middle of the night for a booty call, nor am I the one you can call after several months of not hearing from you and you tell me that you miss me and you want to see me, no it's not happening; especially when you can't even tell me what you miss about me.
So here I am at 52 single and loving it, yes I would love to be in a committed relationship, dating I don't know how to do that and I haven't yet met anyone who really tries to date the way they did in the old days. I ask myself all the time where are the old fashioned men with old school values? I met 2 very nice men one 10 years younger and one 10 years older, and there is someone from from my past trying to get back whom I've known for over 30 years. You may ask what is the problem? you are dating 3 men, well I talk to 2 of them on a regular basis and the other one only wants to see me to have sex, I don't want to have sex every time I see the man I'm suppose to be dating, so for me that is a turn off, and this person lives here, the other 2 live in Texas and Maryland, and only one of them has went out of his way to make me happy and let me know that he wants to be with me, he was the only one of the 3 to send me something for my birthday and the man who sent me 2 dozen roses for Mothers Day, he sends spontaneous messages in the middle of the night when he wakes up, and he always seem to know when I need to smile and he calls. He is everything I need in a man and yes he is older and a southern man. I am trying not to block what I think god has given me because I will be the one to start looking for all the negative and let go of someone who may be for me.
Yes I have had great loves and 2 true loves, o when I get in my moods and I start feeling like I need some TLC I think back on my life with a smile in my heart and I look at my future with a smile because I have met someone who does that for me and I am looking forward to this summer when we will be able to spend some time togther here and in his hometown. The quality of time spent is what is important to me. I am 52 and I haven't given up on love and I never say that I am lonely, I just use the phrase I NEED SOME TLC.
So ladies of OS this story is dedicated to you, yes god will place someone in your life, you just have to open your heart to love and get out of your own way. Take it from someone who used to keep a wall up because I thought I had lost my sexy, I'm ok with me and I am still a work in progress. What I do know is that if this does not work out I can look back and know that I have had a good life.
Stay strong ladies and keep the faith
Vanessa
As everyone knows I am a woman over 50 and I have always said that I don't like dating at all. I don't remember it being this hard, but then when I look back on my past relationships I never really did the dating thing. All of my relationships were friendships that evolved into a relationship. So I am having a difficult time with this. I was a woman who always had a boyfriend, my last real relationship was 8 yrs ago, and the last time I tried to get involved with someone was 3 yrs ago when he showed me something that made me rethink and end that quickly, I was not ready or willing to deal with a messy man, full of lies and deceit. So I took a year off from dating and sex and focus on me. I kept myself busy with work and my family. Exactly 1 year and 3 months later I decided to throw my hat back into the ring of dating. Sure I met a few men who were ok at first but then it turned out they only wanted one thing and that's all it was about. I am not a female youcan call in the middle of the night for a booty call, nor am I the one you can call after several months of not hearing from you and you tell me that you miss me and you want to see me, no it's not happening; especially when you can't even tell me what you miss about me.
So here I am at 52 single and loving it, yes I would love to be in a committed relationship, dating I don't know how to do that and I haven't yet met anyone who really tries to date the way they did in the old days. I ask myself all the time where are the old fashioned men with old school values? I met 2 very nice men one 10 years younger and one 10 years older, and there is someone from from my past trying to get back whom I've known for over 30 years. You may ask what is the problem? you are dating 3 men, well I talk to 2 of them on a regular basis and the other one only wants to see me to have sex, I don't want to have sex every time I see the man I'm suppose to be dating, so for me that is a turn off, and this person lives here, the other 2 live in Texas and Maryland, and only one of them has went out of his way to make me happy and let me know that he wants to be with me, he was the only one of the 3 to send me something for my birthday and the man who sent me 2 dozen roses for Mothers Day, he sends spontaneous messages in the middle of the night when he wakes up, and he always seem to know when I need to smile and he calls. He is everything I need in a man and yes he is older and a southern man. I am trying not to block what I think god has given me because I will be the one to start looking for all the negative and let go of someone who may be for me.
Yes I have had great loves and 2 true loves, o when I get in my moods and I start feeling like I need some TLC I think back on my life with a smile in my heart and I look at my future with a smile because I have met someone who does that for me and I am looking forward to this summer when we will be able to spend some time togther here and in his hometown. The quality of time spent is what is important to me. I am 52 and I haven't given up on love and I never say that I am lonely, I just use the phrase I NEED SOME TLC.
So ladies of OS this story is dedicated to you, yes god will place someone in your life, you just have to open your heart to love and get out of your own way. Take it from someone who used to keep a wall up because I thought I had lost my sexy, I'm ok with me and I am still a work in progress. What I do know is that if this does not work out I can look back and know that I have had a good life.
Stay strong ladies and keep the faith
Vanessa
Thursday, April 19, 2012
HOMOPHOBIA......
Where do I start? At the bginning I guess; well last night I had a very disturbing conversation with a man whom I thought had a little bit of sense.
The conversation started out like this... "I can't wait til the weekend so I can check out Steve Harvey's movie Think Like A Man" him; " Don't no woman need to think like a man, she needs to think like a woman". me.. " you don't get what the purpose of the movie is, he's not telling us to think like you, he's showing you how to basically understand the male mind when seeking out or trying to maintain a relationship". Well he didn't want to here that and it kind of pissed me off, because the conversation went from that to people idolizing celebrities; to some of our most celebrated black actors being gay... Now I'm heated because this convo started when I mentioned that there is a book out about The Rise of Tyler Perry". What did I say that for because now Tyler is everything gay under the sun but the child of god because he does the Madea character. Well you know me because my question to him now is " so what does make Martin portraying big momma, shanay nay and Martins mother on his show? Is he gay? no answer for that, but he did make it very clear that our award winning actors like Denzel, Will Smith and various other actors had to sleep on the directors couch and that's how they got their roles. Never mind that both of these men are just simply great actors. He didn't want to hear that either so now I'm really upset because this conversation just turned ignorant, my point to him was no one says anything about white actors having to sleep with men to get the roles they earned, and I asked him " so what are you saying about the young actors who are coming up now, did the sleep with men to get the roles they deserved? Now mind you this is coming from another black man running down his own kind. No one says anything about white actors dressing up like women, or having to sleep with men. Then he started calling them faggots which really pisses me off, I could not believe that I was actually havimg this kind of conversation with someone I have known all my life. So my question to him was "so this is how you feel?" his response was this is no reflection to the gay men in his family, so I ask you what is the difference between you calling your family members faggots and calling celebrities the same thing. (MONEY). I had to tell this man to stop saying that and that I was done discussing it. Needless to say he was upset, but ask me if I cared. NOT!!!! Like I told him when you feel that strongly negatively about that I think your HOMOPHOBIC... you can't be that secure with your own manhood to feel that way. A person's sexuality is just that, their sexuality they are not asking you to like or accept it but you do need to respect their choice to love who they want and do what they want.....
Til next time I'll talk with soon........
The conversation started out like this... "I can't wait til the weekend so I can check out Steve Harvey's movie Think Like A Man" him; " Don't no woman need to think like a man, she needs to think like a woman". me.. " you don't get what the purpose of the movie is, he's not telling us to think like you, he's showing you how to basically understand the male mind when seeking out or trying to maintain a relationship". Well he didn't want to here that and it kind of pissed me off, because the conversation went from that to people idolizing celebrities; to some of our most celebrated black actors being gay... Now I'm heated because this convo started when I mentioned that there is a book out about The Rise of Tyler Perry". What did I say that for because now Tyler is everything gay under the sun but the child of god because he does the Madea character. Well you know me because my question to him now is " so what does make Martin portraying big momma, shanay nay and Martins mother on his show? Is he gay? no answer for that, but he did make it very clear that our award winning actors like Denzel, Will Smith and various other actors had to sleep on the directors couch and that's how they got their roles. Never mind that both of these men are just simply great actors. He didn't want to hear that either so now I'm really upset because this conversation just turned ignorant, my point to him was no one says anything about white actors having to sleep with men to get the roles they earned, and I asked him " so what are you saying about the young actors who are coming up now, did the sleep with men to get the roles they deserved? Now mind you this is coming from another black man running down his own kind. No one says anything about white actors dressing up like women, or having to sleep with men. Then he started calling them faggots which really pisses me off, I could not believe that I was actually havimg this kind of conversation with someone I have known all my life. So my question to him was "so this is how you feel?" his response was this is no reflection to the gay men in his family, so I ask you what is the difference between you calling your family members faggots and calling celebrities the same thing. (MONEY). I had to tell this man to stop saying that and that I was done discussing it. Needless to say he was upset, but ask me if I cared. NOT!!!! Like I told him when you feel that strongly negatively about that I think your HOMOPHOBIC... you can't be that secure with your own manhood to feel that way. A person's sexuality is just that, their sexuality they are not asking you to like or accept it but you do need to respect their choice to love who they want and do what they want.....
Til next time I'll talk with soon........
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
What do we really want?
I was having a conversation with my daughter yesterday about relationships. And what I've come to realize is that sometimes we don't know what we want in a reationship. For as much as I would love to be in a committed relationship it would not be for the same reason most people are looking for. I am not looking to start a family my kids are grown, I have everything I want right now, as far as sex goes it is not that important to me anymore. I've had great sex over the years so that would not be the most important thing to me.
What I am looking for is someone who likes to do the things I enjoy doing, someone to spend quality time with. So what is wrong with me? I don't want to live with anyone and I enjoy my own company and peace of so much. I think I really do have OCD because it is little things that bother me when there is someone in my space, like sitting a glass on my dresser without a coaster, or trying to make me do something that I contiually tell you I don't do. Maybe that is what's meant by set in your ways.... I talk to 3 people on a daily basis and they are so very different. So I ask myself do I want to settle down with either of them? which one will fill the requirements that I am looking for? Who can I see myself with? and which one will be okay with being in a relationship without living to together? Am I wrong for feeling this way? At 52 I want the attention to be on me without being obssessive and needy, I am not an emotionally or physically needy person, and I don't like emotionally or needy men.... Can we really be happy in a committed relationship without being married or living together....
Will chat with you soon
What I am looking for is someone who likes to do the things I enjoy doing, someone to spend quality time with. So what is wrong with me? I don't want to live with anyone and I enjoy my own company and peace of so much. I think I really do have OCD because it is little things that bother me when there is someone in my space, like sitting a glass on my dresser without a coaster, or trying to make me do something that I contiually tell you I don't do. Maybe that is what's meant by set in your ways.... I talk to 3 people on a daily basis and they are so very different. So I ask myself do I want to settle down with either of them? which one will fill the requirements that I am looking for? Who can I see myself with? and which one will be okay with being in a relationship without living to together? Am I wrong for feeling this way? At 52 I want the attention to be on me without being obssessive and needy, I am not an emotionally or physically needy person, and I don't like emotionally or needy men.... Can we really be happy in a committed relationship without being married or living together....
Will chat with you soon
Saturday, March 10, 2012
DREAM SELLERS......
Today I was talking to someone very close to me who had to follow through with a very difficult decision. This conversation has been bothering me all day, because I continue to see and hear this in a lot of relationships. When do men stop selling women dreams? When do they stop telling us what they think we want to hear just to get with us? If a female tells you from the beginning of meeting each other what it is she wants and what it is she will not tolerate. That does not mean agree with what she said, nor does it mean you tell her all these things you are willing to do for her so that she doesn't have to go through any of that again.
When you do this you take away our options to deal with the real you from the beginning of the relationship.
It is not fair to wait a year into the relationship when you both are in love and it makes it harder to leave.
Now you're looking at her crazy when she asks you what the hell do you have an attitude for you're not doing anything? How do you as a man do that? How do you watch your woman stress out about money, how the bills are going to get paid? hell how the rent will be paid? Now she has given you every oppurtunity to regroup and try to help, now you both sit down and discuss the options, you map out a plan and agree that if you can not come up with what she needs to get the both of you caught up that you would be a man and leave the following month. Now she has also told you that she can't promise you her feelings will change back because now she is looking at you differently. You are not the man she met a year ago yes you sold her a dream but she has stayed consistant with what she told you, and you agree that she has. So now you're mad and you want to argue, she doesn't want to come home from work until she thinks you're asleep. What is wrong with that picture? Now this young lady is going to be stuck with trying to pay off all the back bills when you are gone. But where ever you go you will have to pay there also, so why do you treat your woman like crap.
So men please stop selling us the dream of a good man if you're not, or the dream of a perfect relationship when you can't? If you smoke, drink or do all the things we don't like, just be honest and let us decide if we want to pursue a relationship with you. Just know that if you don't have the top 3 things on every womans list job, car, your own place. You at least have to have a job!!!!!! So stop thinking we're judging you or trying to change you, that is not what we want. We want to sinply be able to still repect you 6 months or 1 year into the relationship.
This was not written to man bash or to generalize all men but you dream sellers no who you are.. This can also be applied to women too, but you see it more in men. If men and women would just stop telling each other what we think they want to hear I think realtionships now would be much better.... Just tell the truth....
When you do this you take away our options to deal with the real you from the beginning of the relationship.
It is not fair to wait a year into the relationship when you both are in love and it makes it harder to leave.
Now you're looking at her crazy when she asks you what the hell do you have an attitude for you're not doing anything? How do you as a man do that? How do you watch your woman stress out about money, how the bills are going to get paid? hell how the rent will be paid? Now she has given you every oppurtunity to regroup and try to help, now you both sit down and discuss the options, you map out a plan and agree that if you can not come up with what she needs to get the both of you caught up that you would be a man and leave the following month. Now she has also told you that she can't promise you her feelings will change back because now she is looking at you differently. You are not the man she met a year ago yes you sold her a dream but she has stayed consistant with what she told you, and you agree that she has. So now you're mad and you want to argue, she doesn't want to come home from work until she thinks you're asleep. What is wrong with that picture? Now this young lady is going to be stuck with trying to pay off all the back bills when you are gone. But where ever you go you will have to pay there also, so why do you treat your woman like crap.
So men please stop selling us the dream of a good man if you're not, or the dream of a perfect relationship when you can't? If you smoke, drink or do all the things we don't like, just be honest and let us decide if we want to pursue a relationship with you. Just know that if you don't have the top 3 things on every womans list job, car, your own place. You at least have to have a job!!!!!! So stop thinking we're judging you or trying to change you, that is not what we want. We want to sinply be able to still repect you 6 months or 1 year into the relationship.
This was not written to man bash or to generalize all men but you dream sellers no who you are.. This can also be applied to women too, but you see it more in men. If men and women would just stop telling each other what we think they want to hear I think realtionships now would be much better.... Just tell the truth....
Sunday, January 15, 2012
NEW YEAR.... NEW RELATIONSHIPS
Happy New Year
What to say? Well so far the year has started out on a positive note. I had to make some decisions about work and for as much as I liked working at the facility I was at it was not full filling my financial obligations, so there fore I had to transfer to another building. I know this building so I will be fine. School is back in session finished last semester with 3 B's. Should be finished by the end of the year. Didn't really make any resolutions this year just to be a better a person, and hopefully this year will find me spending some time with someone special, I'm telling you being single is not easy. Anyway on to the good stuff....
Singles Sights what to say I did not realize that there were so many single people in Cleveland. It makes you wonder why we haven't met outside of a singles group. Well if you had told me just a couple of years ago that I would meet some interesting people on a singles site I would have told you that you were crazy, that only desperate people go looking for love on the internet. Well I guess I'm crazy because I have met some very nice people on now two sites, just recently I was invited to join a group that seems to have it together and really have some interesting thngs to share. Although they may seem a little young and I feel so much older than them I love sharing some of my experinces with them, and the comments have always been positive to everyones posts. This is a group of good looking people, and I wish everyone luck in connectiing with someone that sparks their interest.
There was a question posted recently whether you would relocate for love? That's funny because although my relocation plans had nothing to do with a man, If the right man came along and the relationship was strong and healthy leaning toward a future, yes I would relocate. Long distance relationships are hard in themselves but when it's somebody that you just met is in another city and you are really feeling them how far is too far? I met an interesting man who has really sparked my curiosity from the momment we started comminicating, he says all the right things, and for some reason just talking to him makes my day better. He seems to be the type of man who could love me through all my mess, and he wants to. We have been able to talk about any and everything and I lov to hear him talk about his job, did I mention he was a teacher?
Well tonight he wants to ask me about my life as a wife. Wow!! whewwww how much info do I disclose, I can't lie and I certainly don't want to hide anything from him. My life is basically an open book considering I want to write a semi autobiographical book about my life, so I guess it would b best to tell hm now than to find out later. I always pride myself on my honesty about me, because I am not ashamed of anything that I have done nor do I have regrets. Yes I have been through quite a few hurricanes katrina's and come through it all a stronger person.
Now I am entering my second phase of my life and I am ready to share it with that one special man. So let the questions begin. He knows quite a bit ,but I don't think I have shared any of that with him. I guess you can never share to much if they are the ones asking. So on that note I will end here and until next time..
Talk With You Soon
What to say? Well so far the year has started out on a positive note. I had to make some decisions about work and for as much as I liked working at the facility I was at it was not full filling my financial obligations, so there fore I had to transfer to another building. I know this building so I will be fine. School is back in session finished last semester with 3 B's. Should be finished by the end of the year. Didn't really make any resolutions this year just to be a better a person, and hopefully this year will find me spending some time with someone special, I'm telling you being single is not easy. Anyway on to the good stuff....
Singles Sights what to say I did not realize that there were so many single people in Cleveland. It makes you wonder why we haven't met outside of a singles group. Well if you had told me just a couple of years ago that I would meet some interesting people on a singles site I would have told you that you were crazy, that only desperate people go looking for love on the internet. Well I guess I'm crazy because I have met some very nice people on now two sites, just recently I was invited to join a group that seems to have it together and really have some interesting thngs to share. Although they may seem a little young and I feel so much older than them I love sharing some of my experinces with them, and the comments have always been positive to everyones posts. This is a group of good looking people, and I wish everyone luck in connectiing with someone that sparks their interest.
There was a question posted recently whether you would relocate for love? That's funny because although my relocation plans had nothing to do with a man, If the right man came along and the relationship was strong and healthy leaning toward a future, yes I would relocate. Long distance relationships are hard in themselves but when it's somebody that you just met is in another city and you are really feeling them how far is too far? I met an interesting man who has really sparked my curiosity from the momment we started comminicating, he says all the right things, and for some reason just talking to him makes my day better. He seems to be the type of man who could love me through all my mess, and he wants to. We have been able to talk about any and everything and I lov to hear him talk about his job, did I mention he was a teacher?
Well tonight he wants to ask me about my life as a wife. Wow!! whewwww how much info do I disclose, I can't lie and I certainly don't want to hide anything from him. My life is basically an open book considering I want to write a semi autobiographical book about my life, so I guess it would b best to tell hm now than to find out later. I always pride myself on my honesty about me, because I am not ashamed of anything that I have done nor do I have regrets. Yes I have been through quite a few hurricanes katrina's and come through it all a stronger person.
Now I am entering my second phase of my life and I am ready to share it with that one special man. So let the questions begin. He knows quite a bit ,but I don't think I have shared any of that with him. I guess you can never share to much if they are the ones asking. So on that note I will end here and until next time..
Talk With You Soon
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