PIECES OF ME.....

Just like my favorite song when you look at my face you're gonna know that I'm made of everything love and pain....
   I was listening to this today and I started reminencing about my past relationships, and my life now.
There are so many pieces to me that at 52 have finally come together and now make sense. I thought about who really knows me, and I could not think of one person who really knows me or my story unless you were there. I met a man who asked me today what do I find so intriguing about him.
1. He is so very different from the men I'm used to seeing, he's older for one thing.
2. He is an interesting man and very passionate about what he believes in.
3. He doesn't judge me about my past, although he now knows I don't like talking about myself if he ask me anything I feel so comfortable telling him, and that is something I don't do.
4. He is not an emotionally needy man, he doesn't need to talk to me everyday to know that I care and vice versa.
5. When we finally met in person it was like going to another part of Cleveland, I didn't feel like I had gotten on a plane to go meet a man I had only been talking to on the phone.
There is so much more about him that makes me just want to be in his presence, of all the men I know and have known no has really taken the time to find out what makes me the woman I am today.
This man could tell just from our conversations the basic things about me, that I am a woman who has been through some things, but willing to open my heart up to love, that I am a strong woman but I am also a woman who knows how to let a man be a man, but I can take charge when I have to.
All of this from months of conversations, until the weekend we met and found out that we clicked from the start. All the pieces of information about he now had he could put an actual face to. He saw the me that he had been seeing in all the pictures that he had recieved. Yes I'm real it was not a dream, he could put his hands on the woman that he had been dreaming about and I was in the presence of the man who had now consumed all of my fantasies. I had a wonderful time, just real easy breezy and comfortable.
For as much as I had been through and the many men I have loved none of them took the time to put the pieces together, to learn how to love me or what makes this woman tick. There are alot of pieces...
1) daughter, 2) sister, 3) girlfriend, 4) mother 5) wife and now a matured woman with adult children and a life and past that I am not ashamed of nor do I appologize for, but if the men who professed to love me had just put all the pieces together they would have found found out that I'm not that complicated, and they would have known how to love me right.
This man wants to learn to love me and I most certainly want to learn how to love, and share his dreams as well as him sharing mine.
None of us no how long we have left on this earth, so when you have the chance to be loved by someone who really wants to be with you, don't think about it, don't second guess it just do it.
Yes we as women are complicated and most of us have many pieces, we just want the right man to take the time to put the pieces together and love us whole heartedly and unconditionally.
I am a grown up woman whose pieces have been put together, to share my story and my journey.
I am loving my life right now and the real people in it.
                                                                   Til next time these are the pieces of me.....