True love, soul mates forever lover does it really exit? Why do we spend a lifetime searching for something that most of the time was right in front our face.
September 1977 English class when I asked him when did he know that I was the one for him this is what he tells me. Although at the time I was going with someone else. Now if you ask me my version would go like this. May 1977 he was at home sick, a classmate of mine was liking him at the time. I was still in a relationship with someone so going with her to see him was no problem since we were just friends in the same english class. So me and one of my sisters go with her to see him and just hang out. He's at home alone and doing better. So we all decide that we would get a bottle of wine and just kick it at his house. Since we all didn't need to leave I stayed while they went to the store. We were coming down the stairs of his 3rd floor room and I don't know how or why it happened, I wasn't expecting it but I was in front of him when I turned around he kissed me, and in that moment is when I really felt what butterflies in the stomach felt like. Just one kiss set us on a path of friendship, love, pain, forgiveness, lives and children with other people. We were each others affairs not caring about our partners. Just needing to be with each with no regrets. As Maya Angelou say in a beautiful poem we have loved each other in and out of time. We as people are so afraid of hurt that we let the one who really loves us get away, because we know that one person is the only one who will cause us the most pain.
We say that great relationships are built on strong friendships, well we have that 36 yrs and everything that has happened in our lives good or bad we've shared with each other. every place he's been stationed I had access to always being able to reach him if needed. When you can pick up on feelings over the phone just from the tone of a conversation you have a real connection. While there are some family and friends who will never understand our love for each other or why it's spanned 36 yrs, it is not for you to understand only that in this life you have to do what makes you happy with who you feel makes you happy. Though I am by far perfect I am a good person and a great friend to those who know me. And for those who know this story and there are a few people who know this is really the kind of friendship and relationship that great love stories are made of. When I ask myself if something were to happen to me who would really be there to take care of me and only one person comes to mind. After a conversation that we had several weeks ago we have come to the realization that there is no one out here in this dating pool who will love and understand us like we understand each other. Will this work the 2nd time around I think so, we are now willing to put in the time to make it work. Life is too short and we are going to live it to the fullest with what ever time we have left.
In essence I am saying live your authentic life with the one you love, your life is your life. your relationship is your relationship it does not have to be a carbon copy of what society or anyone else says it has to be. You may have to let go of the negative people around you, but so be it. Love who you want to love, marry who you want to marry.
JUST BE HAPPY......
"If you wait for perfect conditions, you'll never get anything done"
LOVE AS ALWAYS,,,,,,
ME
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